Every night since returning from our month long assortment of travels I have sat down at my husband's laptop (mine did not survive the travels) with every intention to blog, unsuccessfully of course and quite honestly I think I am just a tad bit afraid of what might actually come out once I start writing...
Do you ever just feel out of whack but if someone asked you what was wrong you probably couldn't tell them? Well thats my life right now but don't go feeling sorry for me, the person that needs the pity is my poor husband...his wife is a real piece of work!!
..but about my trips!! We spent the last month vacationing in Florida, visiting family in Baltimore, attending my sister-in-law's wedding in NJ, and doing a whole lot of catching up and hanging out with old friends, it was simply a great time filled with, big hugs, good laughs and hints of confusing emotions.
The tricky thing is no matter how enjoyable and neccesary it is, change is a challenge. Basically during this trip my husband and I both realized that "home" as we knew it is no longer the same and we were forced to admit that neither are we. Its just funny to see it because for the majority of your young life you think what you see is what you will always get and that becomes quite comfortable. Then suddenly it hits you...parents and siblings and family in general don't have stop buttons just pause and what you think is "the way it is" is truely only the "the way it is right now"....good or bad, this too shall pass.
About Me
- Wynter
- I am married to a wonderful man and the mother of 4 precious baby girls :-)
5 comments:
There are plenty of time when I sit down to write, and I end up backspacing because it feels too revealing..I hope whatever you're going thru gets much better
I understand. There's nothing quite like realizing that the world has moved; the seasons have changed. And yet, as we numbering the changes we realize in the end of all the realizations we realize that we have changed too. We are all where we supposed to be and as you said, this feeling and this change will pass and give way to new fantastical, experiences and changes alike. Like Sam Cooke said (when Malcolm X died in that movie...lol), "change is going to come."
OK...you are gonna have to explain this to me in person :)
Love you...
For what it's worth...you don't LOOK like you are in a blah :)
I have blah's all the time...
It will pass...
Change (especially in relationships) can be a bit much to swallow. I've had that feeling that something is just not quite right w/me - more often than I'd care to admit - but it DOES pass. Sometimes I figure out what my deal was (or is) and other times not...I've learned to just fuction through it and let it play itself out...
totally off-point: I really LIKE you. I don't say that to many people. I'm glad to know you.
Rosheeda
Its funny Wynt but I know exactly what that is like to. That feeling that something is different (not necessarily wrong just different), I pray you feel better. I also know what its like to sit down in front of the computer to type something and I feel like I cant. I feel like whats really on my mind is not positive enough or too revealing or would not show a very pleasant side of me. But isnt that me anyway. Shouldnt I be just as willing to write what bothers me just like I write about what inspires me. Its about being real. Whatever the mood, its about being real.
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