Dreams and Little Letters...

A friend of mine just asked me what my wildest dream was. After thinking long and hard I came up with.........

That's right, I came up with nothing. I have learned that whenever I get what I think I want, I realize that I already had what I wanted, haha....

After telling her what I came up with, she sent me parts of a commencement speech made by an all time favorite Ms. Oprah Winfrey. To sum up the speech Oprah was saying she did a show called "Wildest Dream Tour." You know how it goes, she asked people to submit their wildest dreams and she would fulfill them.

She goes on to say that they had a hard time finding enough dreams to fulfill and that women are so damaged that they lack vision. They did manage to pay some bills, send a few ladies on a trip and buy a couple of homes. They also had a few ladies whose wildest dream was to meet her. After seeing what she did for the other ladies, the ladies who simply wanted to meet her were upset. She summed up her point with, "They did not dream big enough."

I realize I may sound like I don't like Oprah, but I do. However I think I disagree with this concept. I think the women who whose dream was to meet her had the right idea. To me a wildest dream is something that would be nice to have happen but I have no control over it. Why would I dream that someone would pay my bills? Although that would be lovely, for it to be my wildest dream simply means I don't think its possible for me to accomplish this and to me that says a lack of vision....

OK topic change!!! What I really wanted to tell you tonight is that I am so proud of my little Alena..and myself! I, oops correction: WE have managed to teach her (keep in mind she just turned 3 in April) how to write the letters: "M", "P", "F", "E", "H", "A", "L", and "T." She can also run off a list of words that begin with "M," "P", and "F" and give you a bible story that matches!!!!! I am having such a proud mommy night and just wanted to share :-)

Just Wipes

Once again my lil Lena has called me to the plate and has challenged me to step up my game. Within the last few weeks she has developed a new awareness of her surroundings, daily activities and rules! Basically she has joyfully entered into the dreaded "WHY" phase.

Thought you might enjoy some of our most recent conversations...

Convo 1: Takes place at the kitchen table after watching what I thought was a safe movie, "Charlotte's Web"

Alena: I don't want to DIE. I don't WANT to DIE. I DON'T WAN--

Me: --Alena, what are you talking about? Why are you saying that?

Alena: Wilbur says that mommy..I don't want..

Me: Ohhhh ok, well don't say that anymore

Alena (very genuinely) Why mommy?

Me: um I don't know just don't

Alena: But why mom? Is it mean?

Me: No

Alena: Is it silly?

Me: um no

Alena: Is it bad?

Me: um no

Alena: well then why mommy? why?

Me: JUST DON'T!!!!! :-)

Convo 2: Alena is coloring on the floor. I look over and see a crayon in her mouth…not the first time..

Me: (in my very serious and stern voice, kneeling down so I can be eye level) Alena, do not put the crayons in YOUR mouth. If I see you put another crayon in your mouth, I am going to throw them in the trash. Do you understand?

Alena: yes ma'am

Within matter of seconds I look back over at her and what do I see? SHE IS COLORING ON MY FLOOR!!!!!

Me: (VERY SERIOUS) ALENA, DIDN'T I TELL YOU IF YOU DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH CRAYONS I WAS GOING TO THROW THEM IN THE TRASH????

Alena calmly looks up at me and says: No, you said if I put them in my mouth.

Me: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Our most recent convo 3: I am sitting on the living floor and in walks Alena. She is wiping off the walls, the baseboards and is proceeding to wipe off Kaitlyn's play gym

Me: Alena what are you doing?

Alena: (never stopping what she is doing) Cleaning up

Me: (getting increasingly worked up because I notice that she is using her toddler wipes that we just bought today!) "Alena is that a wipe from your bathroom? What are you doing with those? Those are expensive! Mommy paid a lot of money for those!!! You are only supposed to use those in the bathroom!!!! DO NOT CLEAN THE HOUSE WITH THOSE!!!! If you play with them I AM NOT GOING TO BUY YOU ANYMORE....

Alena: after she saw that I was finished my tantrum, she very calm and "as a matter of fact" says: Mommy, they are just wipes.

Me: LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL......

Folks I am doing the best I can but this little girl is TOO MUCH!!!!!

Today

Hubby is out of town...so just thought I'd post these pictures to sum up our great day of absolutness NOTHINGNESS :-)

Kaitlyn finally notices Alena!

Life as I knew it...

It was nearly 1am. and instead of being somewhere far off in dreamland or snuggled with my hubby, there I sat on the floor alone (well sort of) in my musty, hot bedroom, inhaling humidity.

This may sound bizarre to some of you but if you have ever had a sick child...this scene is probably somewhat familiar.

Kaitlyn, my precisous 3 month old baby girl has a cough bigger then her and it just won't go away. So as a last resort to relieve her from her discomfort, I decided to place the humidifier on the floor and position myself directly in front of it in order for her to inhale the steam perfectly, kind of like a baby facial :-) I have to admit it sounds "extra" considering the humidfier had been running ALL day and my room could not get any more humid, but it worked and somehow she managed to sleep through the whole ordeal.

I am not sure how long I stayed on the floor or when I finally dozed off but the one thing I am sure about is that it was my sweet little 3 years olds voice that woke me at 6:57am.

Now, if anyone knows anything about me they know I am a sleeper. I mean I L-O-V-E to sleep, almost didnt get my husband (then acquaitance) because I chose sleep over talking to him...haha but thats another blog. So anyway its kind of ironic that I am now forced to survive with so little of it.

Of course Alena woke up ready to go and because of Kaitlyn's cough we were not going anywhere for the second day in a row. So I needed to be on point to keep up with her energy level. I actually suprised myself. I mean we played hard...baby dolls, crafts, makeshift Easter egg hunt and on and on...

Its days like this that I have to admit that I never could have imagined life as I know it but I am so glad its the one I got!